Learning & Growing

WARNING: This post is liable to be random. Hang with me or not…just thought I should issue the warning.

FALL. I love this season. The leaves on the trees are fabulous! The food opportunities are abundantly YUMMY. Pumpkin anything, apple anything, soups and breads and all things dessert. Obviously, I am not a picky person in regards to food. Ruby and I are learning a lot about apples in her school work. We checked out a lot of books on apples, too. We did a cute, cute thing the other day—you read a story about a little boy whose mom sent him to find a red house with no doors, no windows and a star inside. He looked and looked and finally decided it must be an apple! But how in the world do you know there is a star inside? You cut it down the middle of the apple (opposite way that you normally would) and there is a cute little star where the seeds sit. Very neat. Ruby is learning to read very well. I am so proud of her.
Molly is learning to use the computer better. She goes onto a spelling site and types in words, then listens to a lady spell them and use them in a sentence. Very smart girl!
Mack is talking non-stop and is into everything. He randomly chooses to sit on the potty for pooping. I think we still have a long way to go in that area. But, still, overall this Fall has included some great learning moments in the Dorminy house.

Ruby asks phenomenal questions about God, Heaven, and sin.  I personally believe that she gets it and has prayed and asked God to save her.  It happened one day at the kitchen table.  It was amazing because it was all her.  She asked me some questions that were prompted by Molly wondering about the soldiers who killed Jesus.  Were they in Heaven now?  Did they feel bad about hurting Jesus?  I talked about their hearts and our hearts and what we believe.  We talked about the two thieves on the cross.  Anyway, Ruby said, “I believe that, Mama.  I believe all of that about Jesus and dying on the cross for my sins.  I believe it.”  She said it with great conviction and enthusiasm.  I was a little bit caught off guard and prayed for the right response.  I told her that was great and asked her if she had ever told God that she believed.  She said, “Well, no, but I’m gonna pray right now.  Molly, I’m gonna pray.”  And she did.  It was amazing.  We finished our lunch.  I told Josh about it, and he is talking with her even more.  She definitely shows remorse and sadness when she disobeys or says something hurtful to me or Molly or Mack.  Good stuff.

I am learning and growing in lots of areas, too. Learning how to keep Molly and Mack entertained and out of our hair while we home school. Learning to stay calm when my efforts of keeping M & M entertained don’t work. Learning some things about couponing (thanks, Mary). Learning that Josh and I can make a yummy baked potato soup, learning a new grocery store, learning how to get to the local TARGET (this is important, people), learning how to keep up with cleaning this house…or rather, learning that I can barely keep up with keeping the house completely clean and when I do it takes ALL day, learning that Mack loves Monster Inc movie and the girls have very fond affection for the Berenstain Bears, and  there is oh so much more I could blab about.
On a more serious note, I am learning that all those people who told me that the baby stage just flies by and to enjoy every minute of it and that these are the best days of your life (while I looked at them like, HUH???!!!!!!!!!), were actually very right. I am learning that I am a complainer extraordinaire and need to stop, I am learning that I think too much of what others think of my service or church work, I am learning that keeping my “spiritual blinders” on is harder than I could have imagined….and so much more.  I am thankful for these times when, through the study of The Word and prayer and service, I learn more and more about where I am and where God wants me.  He isn’t frustrated with me for not being somewhere else, but is so patient and so faithful and so available to me.  It’s good, very good, to be in a place where I can see my areas of weaknesses AND see how the Lord has provided me with all I need to be victorious in those areas.

In the area of complaining, I think I feel like if I just did all that I do without saying SOMETHING about it all, then no one would appreciate me or help me.  That is just not true!  God sees me, right here in my house with every single thing I do or don’t do.  He knows.  He is the ultimate Encourager, ultimate Helper, ultimate Friend.  I am missing it in this area and want to do better.  Mainly, keeping my mouth shut.  Then, praying that the Lord will help my heart to deal appropriately with my negative thoughts…even to the point where they occur MUCH less frequently or—wonder of wonders–never happen.  Hmmmmmm…..

Ephesians 6:6 seems to be the verse for me these days…..”not by way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but as servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart, rendering service with good will as to the Lord and not to man, knowing that whatever good anyone does, this he will receive back from the Lord, whether he is slave or free.”

MY MASTER by Christy Nockels is my song lately.  If you haven’t heard it, find it on i-tunes and buy  her whole album!  Here are the lyrics:

The day You heard my plea,
You looked right through me
You saw the pit I was in
And You came and pulled me out…

You set my feet upon a rock
And put a new song in my mouth
Then You called me Your own
And I’m never turning back

I love my Master, I will not go free…
I take Your name and live in liberty
My life is Yours forever
I’ll serve You faithfully
I love my Master, I will not go free…

You’re a love I’ve never known
And Your faithfulness has shown
No matter what I’m about
You always find me out

And You lovingly remain
Age to age the same
And for all of my days
I will tell of Your ways..Your mighty ways…

Covenant Keeper
You are, You are
Merciful, Kindness
You are, You are
Passionate Father
You are, You are
Lifeblood redeemer
You are…

Written by Christy Nockels
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