Work In Progress

This is my third fall here in Charlotte. The first one, in 2016, was a bit overwhelming, but I expected it to be so. New city, new house, new grocery store, new plumber (because the new house is really old), new doctors, new everything.

The next fall, in 2017, every day seemed more discouraging than the last. I thought I would have been farther along. I thought I would have a group of friends. I thought I would be plugged in at church somewhere. I thought I would know my way around better. In a nutshell, I was disappointed in my lack of progress in pretty much every single area. Floundering would be a good word to describe it.

I felt like a nobody. And that is not a good feeling.

I spent time in the Word and in prayer daily, reciting the truth of Whose I am. I repeated Philippians 1:6…except I would say, “He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it.” I was encouraged that God wasn’t finished with me and that He was still working in me and going to use me again. I was challenged to continue to follow Him and seek out His purpose for me here. But recently I was reading Philippians 1:6 and here is how the NAS version reads: “For I am confident on this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.”

Paul was telling the Philippians that God began a good work in them at salvation and would continue working in them and on them and through them until Jesus comes back and all is made perfect again.

I was taking that verse and boiling it down to some personal promise that God was going to complete something in me here on earth for a specific purpose. That He started something in me and was going to bring it to completion. I wanted to figure out how to make my life important and purposeful on my own. “It” was maybe going back to school to learn and use a degree for Him. “It” might be writing a book one day after the kids are gone. “It” may be being a part of a mission organization in a significant way. But surely my “it” was in limbo during this season of new, this season of knowing few and being known by even fewer, this season of mothering and homeschooling. I mean, I can’t complete anything for long in motherhood. All that we do is undone….beds, clean clothes, meals, clean dishes, and more. That’s a whole ‘nother post.

“…that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.”

“It” is the good work of sanctification that He began in my life when He saved me. And He never stops doing that work. He will always be doing a work in my soul through every season of life. I’m not in a section of my life that doesn’t matter. He is being faithful and steadfast and working in me and on me and through me UNTIL THE DAY OF CHRIST JESUS. One day all will be made perfect and right. Until then, I rest in the fact that God’s good work is being perfected, and He won’t stop until Jesus comes back to restore everything to perfection.

Hannah Anderson wrote a chapter in a book, Identity Theft, that I am reading. It greatly encouraged me, so I will leave it here and maybe it will encourage you as well.

“In moments of difficulty, confusion and loss, God is stripping you of all the things you may reach out for instead of him. He is cutting and cleaning and crafting your life so it can shine the light of His glory. Do not be afraid when this happens. Don’t be afraid when the questions come and the things you once relied on don’t satisfy you any longer. Do not be afraid when He comes to relieve you of your idols of identity. Do not be afraid because a good and powerful God is at work. He is coming to reclaim His own, and he will not stop until you become your truest self–a woman whose life reflects the greatness of the glory of her God!” {Identity Theft, Hannah Anderson}


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