Gran

Ruby, Molly, and Mack have a GRAN (aka Josh’s mom).  They love her lots.  She plays with them so much when she is visiting us or when we are down at their home in South Georgia.  She truly is one of the most self-less people I have ever known and watched.  Last week we learned that she has cancer.  I am sure to some extent it hasn’t sunk in for us.  We are taking it day by day and trusting the Lord–knowing He is at work in and through all of our circumstances.  She is a wonderful woman.  Josh is a great husband greatly due to his PHENOMENAL parents.  I am a recipient of her hard work and dedication because I get to be married to Josh.  I shared with Josh just the other day that I was not sure how to pray.  I mean, for many selfish reasons I want the Lord to heal her today and keep her from having to go through chemo or surgery or recovery of any kind.  “Just make her all better, Lord.” Knowing God is sovereign and in control of this, I felt sort of selfish for praying that way…I don’t assume to know how He wants to work or why He wants to work in this way. So one second I pray, “Make her all better today!”  and then the next second I say, “I know You know best and much better than me, so do whatever You want to do.”  A friend of mine I ran into last week encouraged me to pray for whatever is on my heart. God already knows my thoughts and wants me to be completely open with Him.  I am doing that, and I am also trusting wholeheartedly that the Lord has a perfect plan as we all go through this together.  I heard a song called GRATITUDE again today.  I love this song and now it has so much more meaning to me.  I will include the words of the song below, and you can listen to them on the you tube video at the top….just put the video b/c I cannot figure out how to just add the song…

GRATITUDE 

Send some rain, Would you send some rain?  Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again.  And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade. Would you send a cloud? Thunder long and loud?  Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down.  Surely you can see that we are thirsty an afraid.

Or maybe not, not today.  Maybe you’ll provide in other ways and if that’s the case, We’ll give thanks to you with gratitude for lessons learned in how to thirst for You, How to bless the very sun that warms our face if You never send us rain.

Daily bread, give us daily bread.  Bless our bodies, keep our children fed.  Fill our cups, then fill them up again tonight.  Jesus, wrap us up and warm us through, tucked away beneath our sturdy roofs.  Let us slumber safe from danger’s view this time

Or maybe not, not today. Maybe You’ll provide in others way and if that’s the case, We’ll give thanks to You with gratitude–a lesson learned to hunger after You, that a starry sky offers a better view if no roof is over head and if we never taste that bread.

Oh, the differences that often are between everything we want and what we really need.

So grant us peace, Jesus Grant us peace.  Move our hearts to hear a single beat between alibies and enemies tonight.  

Or maybe not, not today.  Peace might be another world away and if that’s the case….We’ll give thanks to You with gratitude in lessons learned in how to trust in You, that we are blessed beyond what we could ever dream, in abundance or in need, and if you never grant us peace.

Oh, but Jesus, would You, please?