Last week I had just finished folding all of Josh’s white undershirts that he wears every day. They were nicely sitting on the bed, and I was about to leave for Wednesday night church. The whole day had been full of laundry and cooking and cleaning and schooling and more laundry. I was tempted to leave the folded shirts on the bed so that Josh could see them when he got home and recognize this clean stack of shirts as a representation of all of my work from the day. And he could put them away and be thankful for a wife who does so much around here. (Please tell me I am not the only one who thinks these things at times.)
But as soon as I had those thoughts, I picked up the shirts and marched them to their proper place in the closet and said outloud, “You see me, Lord. I don’t need to leave these out for Josh to see. You see me. You know every step I take, every bit of work I do around here. You know and that is enough for me.”
And it really is. I am not saying that I always feel seen and noticed. But the truth is that God is always with me— my constant companion and friend. If there is any truth that I have experienced throughout our move to a new place, this one rises to the top. God sees me and loves me and is always with me. I hang on to this truth many days. The result is that I spend more time in The Word. I spend more time in prayer. The intimacy factor grows stronger when He is all you have.
As I was reading Matthew 6 each day this week, what stood out to me was an intimacy factor in any Believer’s relationship with God.
When you GIVE, don’t let your left hand know what your right hand is doing (v4) “so that your giving will be in secret; and your Father who sees what is done is secret will reward you.”
When you PRAY, don’t use meaningless repetition just to be seen and heard by men. But instead, (v6) “when you pray, go into your inner room, close your door and pray to your Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.”
When you FAST, don’t put on a gloomy face so that you are noticed by men, but (v17-18)) “when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face so that your fasting will not be noticed by men, but by your Father who is in secret; and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you.”
So much of God’s work in my life is done in the secret places. Not on social media. Not on a stage. Not with an audience. And I am thankful for the hard places that foster intimacy with my Father who “knows what I need before I ask Him (Matthew 6:8).” What a comforting truth.