I admit, I have been focused on school and on our checklists. I have done my best to keep the kids focused and diligent. I have called them out on their laziness and messy handwriting. I have been less-than-impressed with their chore results, which will soon show up in how little money they receive in a couple of weeks. I try to smile and enjoy them because I know these days will be gone before I know it. HOWEVER, I still feel very responsible for educating them. I feel so responsible for helping them learn to love to learn. I feel so responsible for making sure they aren’t lazy complainers. And I have laundry to do and three meals a day and friends to chat with or text with and bills to schedule…blah, blah, blah…So it’s hard to find a good balance between mom and teacher sometimes. Maybe I am the only one….gosh, I hope not.
But I am their mom. And I want to be a fun mom.
I do.
I want to laugh and smile and bake cookies regularly for the little munchkins and serve milk with a smile and a hug. I want to cheerfully help them with the problems they miss in math. I want to snuggle with them while they read. I want to joyfully sit and listen to Ruby play her piano. I want to let Molly use my laptop to use fun2draw and watch her create funny little drawings. I want to build things with legos with Mack.
But there is a lot to do. I need them to get the math lesson today so we can move on. I need them to read quickly because if I sit still for too long, then I am going to fall asleep. And I can’t fall asleep because Ruby has piano at 2:30 and then worship practice at 4:45 and we have to eat in between because Ruby also loves Wednesday youth group. Or Molly has sewing at 3:00, but if we don’t finish this Science lesson and make sure they study their vocabulary and hang our timeline figures on the timeline for History and do the math lessons (that never end), then we will be behind.
I could go on, but I will not bore you. I did decide today that we would do some math and then go to Krispy Kreme today….because sometimes the kids need doughnuts from their mom….with a smile and a hug.
We also went in Sprouts to check out what they had to offer. It’s a great little grocery store. All of us enjoyed it. And we even did a little school. Molly weighed the Honey Crisp apples, which were only 2.99/ pound and figured out how much they would cost. Ruby and Mack spotted a flower and identified the stamen and carpel and saw pollen…all of this went right along with what we are learning in Science. Yay!
We also went to deliver some doughnuts to a friend and see her new baby boy!! Precious!!!
So we did have a fun day. And we did get school done! Yay for us. Here is to hoping that we all survive this homeschooling gig and still love each other when it’s all said and done.
Sometimes the homeschoolin Mama needs a doughnut, too!!! This post sounds just like me lately…feeling that guilt of being so responsible for everything…wanting to find that balance between Mama, teacher, disciplinarian, friend, encourager…tiring at times. Then I hope I am not ruining them!! Or ruining myself (haha). Thankful for prayer and the Lord’s guidance. We will have to chat about this during our visit.